Fair of failing

I want to re edit  my book A Special s Love. But I am afraid. I am afraid that I am gonna fail. How does one complete something. When all her life she starts something but halfway in the middle she stops. Why because she is afraid of failing. I know my blog is no popular because I ignored it for so long but I'm not going to any longer so maybe just maybe someone out there reads this and can help me by overcoming. My fair.

Cool dude of the day. Our rabbit Fatty aka Butter Finger

Live each day like it's your last and enjoy

Waking up from the coma and scared out of my mind. And the only thing I could remeber was the dream I was having while I was in the coma. It was so scary. I rembrr running my words could come out.   But in my mind I was yelling for my daughter , mm and my sons.  I could find them and I was scared. When I did I still couldn't get the words to come out and I was tied to my bed. Looking into my daughter eyes I pleaded for her to hear me, there was more to the dream I won't talk about. But before I woke up and I believe this part was real. My mother was there and she looked amazing. She didn't look sick and I didn't want to leave her she looked into my eyes and said I needed to go back my kids needed me. I would see her again and she told me she is always watching  then I woke up and the next month o had to learn to walk again and breath better I a trech in my throat it was a long two months not just for me but for my family bfor my daughter who never left my side for my dad who stayed with the kids the whole time and for my boys especially ethan  who tried to help and did a amazing job.  I love you guys. So to all of you. Live each day as if it was your last. Love your family and most of all your self and finnally thank god every day for watching over us. 

Thought of the day

I wish I could turn back time for my son

I wish I could turn back time for you my son. But I can't  I know you hate me but you know what I love you and I am sorry 

You are so unhappy. 

Some day soon you will show everyone 

That they were wrong and you were right

Your going to be a wwe wrestler 

I love you my son I love you from the bottom of my soul.  

Happy hump day every

I'm very tired  but I'm not gonna nap 

I've gotten about 6 hrs asleep in the  past 2 days.  I can't get my self out of this funk.  Lol.     Posting pics of my animals in the family    Lady. My Dalmation. And Fatty a.k.a ButterFinger our rabbit.  

Destined to be

Part 1.  

The voices were getting louder each day I would beg the voices to leave me be.  But all I got was one word and that was "help".  Since I was a little girl I always heard the voices. As I got older. Not only could I hear the voice but could see the body too . Them one day a little girl came up me and asked me to talk to her mom. I then asked the little girl who had been killed a year earlier while out with family 

What it was she wanted me to tell her mom.  The little spirit looked me in the eyes and said " tell my mommy she's got to live , live for papa and most of all she's got to live for my baby sister, tell her I am ok I don't blame her or papa tell her  with gramma and the roses. Make sure you mention the roses and after telling the mother and holding her whi she cried 

The spirit then said I can go now she then placed a rose in my hand and was gone.